Monday, August 30, 2004
hmm... i actually didn't want to post my LJ link here. but since you guys are asking, and i feel guilty for not telling you all, here's my LJ link! www.livejournal.com/~azhire in case you are wondering, yes, i made the nick up. it's another combination of words. azure and shire. i just like blue, all the different shades, and azure is so vibrant. a beautiful vibrant blue! and shire's supposed to mean something like land. i think. so blue land! hee~
hmm... but warning you all first, i might return back to blogger... blogger has so many new features!!! so fun! very cool now. even diff colours and can upload files!!! cool! turning out to be something like LJ now.
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Tuesday, June 22, 2004
lol, another post.
i have just realised that all i've done in this hols is bio sia. how pathetic. oh well, and i've only done bio sia coz xin ying is pestering and stressing me out for it. i was totally slacking yesterday.
finished reading my book. evening class by Maeve Binchy. it's so cool! really incredible. about people and their lives and how different pple deal with different situations. i love the way she progresses the plot. by delving into the characters' lives.
ok... but i think it's good to have someone stressing me... or i'll not do anything at all...:D -sheepish look- oh well, xin ying would be very displeased when she reads this. but it's not as if she never knew, yeah? *evil*
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I seriously think i am going mad. now, this is not a new thing to me, i must say, but seriously, i am beginning to doubt my sanity. does anyone here actually talk to themselves in their head? like on boring bus rides or anything? i seriously doubt so right? sigh. i would really like to see if my facial expressions change on the bus. to amuse myself, i begin talking to a little voice in my head. to make it sound better, an imaginary friend...-_-" oh well, the same, the same. so me and this friend talk about the people on the bus. make up really weird stories about them. then i start smirking and laughing quietly. in my head of course. but i am beginning to wonder if the smirks actually shows up on my face...yepz.
so this afternoon, while eating lunch. dessert actually, since i was eating fruits... the little voice in my head exclaimed, "i love eating mangoes, they're my favourite fruit in the world" then i added, "besides watermelon of course. so watermelon comes first, then mango comes second." then i suddenly realised i was talking to myself.. again. so this entry came about... yeah. really weird. so now i doubt my sanity again... -yawns- what's new, yeah?
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Wednesday, June 16, 2004
argh. i hate being sick. feels awful. racking cough. whenever i cough, my whole body trembles, and my stomach aches. <-- this i got no idea why... fever comes and goes. it was quite high on monday. 39 point something. the doctor was rather nice. though she didn't give me any sweets! i was staring longingly at them throughout the whole thing and she didn't even get my hint! maybe i didn't stare meaningfully enough.. :( my fever subsided in the afternoon feeling really ok, i was packing my stuff in my room with my mommy. thn it came back while watching tv. -sniffles- so irritating. bah/
renewing my love for the song perfect! :D ^_^V hope i'll feel better tmr. pray for me, yar?
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Monday, May 31, 2004
i don't feel very good today. i have spent the entire day croaking out words to my brother, mother, and father. or just whispering/mouthing words to my mother and brother. or yelling at my brother, and having a silent fit after that. manz. i am so sad. i can't even yell properly at my brother.
oh well, today was rather fun and fulfilling, with the exception of that irritating hoarse throat. i bought a skirt. my first ever skirt!!! which i bought after a long period of not touching any skirt (excluding my school skirt). it's pretty cool! really nice, a jeans one! going to wear it to my aunt's wedding. so exciting, she's getting married. my mom's all excited and flustered about it. -grin- fun-ness!
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Saturday, May 29, 2004
sigh...sometimes i hate myself. ever got that feeling? it's coming pretty strongly lately. then i wonder... is it just me, or do other pple ever hate themselves too? i used to think that i was the only odd person, having all kinds of weird thoughts, then recently i realised, it was not just myself, other pple also have these kinds of thoughts too.
so sad. elective week is over. i like ms sandra a lot, though her hyperness gets on my nerves... but she's really sweet! i saw her in the science centre yesterday, with mr kevin, and they let us play with the i-board. it's really fun! we started drawing pictures all over it... XD both of them are such nice pple! -huggles-
electives week was pretty dreary but rather fun. all those weird experiments and boring lectures. staring at their funny gelled hair, thinking of even weirder experiments. stoning, laughing and singing with samantha, seeing people screaming because of a little froggie. xin ying and grace sitting far away from me. i'll miss this subject. it's really interesting. (i realise that i have repeated this quite a number of times..) oh yeah, rushing out files is so not fun! i hate filing. though this year i am much much more organised.
my rambling thoughts: just some random words.
i live in a world, where grey is all around.
there's no such thing as white.
no such thing as black.
just only different shades of grey.
yet i wonder,
isn't grey made up of white and black?
so why isn't there such thing as clear defined areas?
so why do i feel this strange feeling,
choking my throat,
which i cannot describe?
It's dissapointment,
irritation,
anger, fear,
misery, doubt.
and yet,
something more.
something deeper than words.
feelings can't be categorised.
they are a mixture,
a mixture of colours.
red, yellow, blue.
orange, green, violet.
they are shades.
just like white and black.
grey.
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Wednesday, May 26, 2004
ahhh! two more days to hols! then i'm free, i'm free, i'm free!!!! overjoyed
today's pearlene's birthday and mrs tan's daughter's birthday... wondering how i knew? lol. she was saying it sometime during the day...oh well, let's sing a happy birthday song! -grin-
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to everyone,
happy birthday to you.
sigh...today sam is stuck with the linkin park song, in the end. it is one of the their songs that i like. it's nice... numb is nice too...:D it seems as though lots of pple are going for linkin park's concert... hmmm... zwing's going, shu jun's going (i just read her diary)... i dunno, but i don't really like shouty songs... but the person singing them must really have quite good stamina. coz it's shouting all the way... scary. lemme go and find in the end lyrics...
Band: Linkin Park
Song: In The End
It starts with one...
One thing,
I don't know why,
It doesn't even matter how hard you try,
Keep that in mind,
I designed this rhyme,
To explain in due time,
All I know,
Time is a valuable thing,
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings,
Watch it count down 'till the end of the day,
The clock ticks life away,
It's so unreal,
You didn't look out below,
Watch the time go right out the window,
Trying to hold on,
Didn't even know, I wasted it all,
Just to watch you go,
I kept everything inside,
And even know I tried,
It all fell apart,
What it meant to be,
Will eventually be,
A memory of a time, when ,
I tried so hard and got so far,
But in the end,
It doesn't even matter,
I had to fall,
To lose it all,
But in the end,
It doesn't even matter,
One thing, i don't know why,
It doesn't even matter how hard you try,
Keep that in mind,
I designed this rhyme,
To remind myself
How I tried so hard...
In spite the way you were mocking me,
Acting like i was part of your property,
Remembering all the times you fought with me,
I'm surprised it got so far,
Things aren't the way they were before,
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore,
Not that you knew me back then,
But it all comes back to me,
In the end...
You kept everything inside,
And even know i tried it all fell apart,
What it meant to me, will,
Eventually, be a memory of a time when,
I tried so hard and got so far,
But in the end,
It doesn't even matter,
I had to fall,
To lose it all,
But in the end,
It doesn't even matter,
I've put my trust in you,
Pushed as far as I can go,
For all this,
There's only one thing you should know,
I've put my trust in you,
Pushed as far as i can go,
For all this,
There's only one thing you should know...
I tried so hard and got so far,
But in the end,
It doesn't even matter,
I had to fall,
To lose it all,
But in the end,
It doesn't even matter
nice song! i like the tune of it.. though it's a bit shouty. :D i'm fickle.-grins widely-
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Sunday, May 23, 2004
hmm... what's a thumbdrive? some pple are going to sell it in our sch.
i asked my dad, and he said, is it something to do with the thumb? (sticks out thumb, uses the other hand to point at it) go check the dictionary. then stuffing his really old and out-of-date one under my nose. lolz. he's so amusing sometimes. so i was trying to tell him that it was something to do with computers... and he looked a bit puzzledly at me, saying, is it controlled by the thumb?!
then i laughed my head off... rotfl. he's so funny!!
i thought he would know something about it, since he attended this course on computers some time back, but apparently, he has never even heard of it before. my family are all computer idiots... including me of course.. even though i think i know more about computers compared to them. but this is because i just fiddle with the computer... clicking here, clicking there... i used to hang it a lot... until i got this one. this com is quite reliable... doesn't hang so much as the other ones i used to have...:D or maybe i have learnt which thingys i should and should not do to the computer... heh~
what does sync mean? hmmm... they(http://www.m-w.com/cgi-bin/dictionary) said sync as in syncronise...
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